A SWEET, PERFECT ANGEL, WHOM WE OBVIOUSLY ADORE: Never once in my life have I been described as casual. I've been dealing with this since as long as I have memories - disclaimer: I know childhood trauma of being the peacekeeper/jester/emotional pallbearer in my deeply emotionally dysfunctional family has deeply influenced this (have been in therapy for years trying to unpack this anxiety and rework some ideas of self worth) - but I feel like all the work I've put into trying to release this need to people please still doesn't stop me from constantly altering my existence to make sure that everyone else is having a good time or that I am seen as fun, good, cool, insert positive to neutral adjective here. To me, taking up space and being passive are what I perceive others think are desirable but my activeness and "too muchness" is bad, annoying, undesirable, the list goes ON.
How to deal with constant social anxiety.
How to deal with constant social anxiety.
How to deal with constant social anxiety.
A SWEET, PERFECT ANGEL, WHOM WE OBVIOUSLY ADORE: Never once in my life have I been described as casual. I've been dealing with this since as long as I have memories - disclaimer: I know childhood trauma of being the peacekeeper/jester/emotional pallbearer in my deeply emotionally dysfunctional family has deeply influenced this (have been in therapy for years trying to unpack this anxiety and rework some ideas of self worth) - but I feel like all the work I've put into trying to release this need to people please still doesn't stop me from constantly altering my existence to make sure that everyone else is having a good time or that I am seen as fun, good, cool, insert positive to neutral adjective here. To me, taking up space and being passive are what I perceive others think are desirable but my activeness and "too muchness" is bad, annoying, undesirable, the list goes ON.